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story time people!

I've said it before and I'll say it again: I'm an introvert which means I have my mood where I can deal with people and go crazy but I also have my mood where I just don't want to deal with anything or anyone.

Today is my I'm-so-done-with-everything mood. Naturally, I don't want to deal with anything or anyone. If it is not life-death situation, I don't wanna know, I don't care, I don't wanna deal.

I also have a couple of defense mechanisms I always use to pull myself from an unwanted or an awkward situation, for example, this post. As you all know that I am currently in a foreign country so, I utilize this situation as much as possible. I speak Chinese, sure, not fluent but enough to help me pass my courses and survive daily. I also speak English, enough to write a whole post in English. I guess, that's enough background introduction.

ANYWAYS. So. Sometimes, when my fight or flee instinct is triggered, seventy percent of the time, I'd choose flee. In China, I use my lack of language skill to flee a lot of situations that would require me talk to people or explain something to people. When I am in my I-just-can't-deal, I scare local people away by pretending I don't speak Chinese and vice versa, I scare foreigners away by pretending I don't speak English. It works all the time.

I KNOW HOW PROBLEMATIC THIS IS, OKAY, I KNOW.

It's inappropriate and unfair and just downright mean but you knooooowwwwwwww sometimes I am in a very switched-off mode that I just can't deal. Sometimes I even ignored everyone's messages--this is probably why I don't have friends. But you know when you can't deal, you just can't.

So. Just few hours before I made this post, a foreigner approached me in the supermarket. At first, they only said a friendly 'Hi'. I am still in the I-just-can't mood so I responded with a "nihao". Everything is fine and dandy until they actually talked to me, trying to strike a conversation. I was like "听不懂，我不会说英文" and they were like "that's great! you can teach me Chinese" and I was like...

f      u

c         k

So yeah, long story short, I introduced myself as a girl named 夏 (Xia, which means summer, shut up, I panicked) and I came from Shanghai and majoring in Chinese Literature. I gave them my number but once I reached my dorm I blocked their number. I know they probably just want to learn Chinese from a Chinese student the thing is: I am not a local student, I was just an introvert looking for a way out of social interaction. Let me live. Don't @ me.

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disclaimer: I might be a little bit too radical or too tumblr-y sjw when it comes about this issue but hey, hear me out: I might be onto something here. English is not my first language so there might be some awkward wordings here and there.

And this post is, like, heavily directed for people who wants to have sex, if you're an ace, this post might not be for you?