A Pretty Little Liar Who Told Lies. What's New?

Have you ever told a lie?





I lie.

Well, an occasional white lie is not a problem. I mean, we all lie here and there all the time. I just realized that by writing this post, people will definitely brand me a liar but, trust me, I don't lie about something too frivolous.

In fact, I lie to avoid awkward-ish situation. Kind of.

Kind of.

Heh.

You see, sometimes, when strangers or generally people I am not comfortable with ask me where I go to college... I don;t give them a truthful answer. For example, someone from my pilates class asked me where I go to college and I just told them "Surabaya!" and of course that question followed by "Really? What are you majoring?" "Eh. Psychology!" "Ah, in what year are you?" *screaming internally* "Fifth semester!"

I am so sorry. Or sometimes..

"Malaysia!" "What are you majoring in?" "Uh, Business...?" "Okay." "Okay."

You see, there are other circumstances aside from where I go to college, I also tend to blatantly lie when I went out alone. This only happens when I'm in China since I don't really got out of the house when I'm in Indonesia... AHAH.

For example, if I come across a senior in the afternoon or other hours that I don't have classes, we'd exchange pleasantries because that's how society works and I have to abide by the social cues. Sigh. You see, as some of you probably already guess, I am not the most outgoing person ever. I am decent in crowd but I do prefer to keep myself around tight circle of friends.

((sigh)).

Anyways, sometimes, when I come across a senior or someone I know but not that well around dormitory--whether I just needed to take a walk or I just needed to do a snack run to the minimarket--I just.. Lie. Not all the time, because sometimes I come across them on my way to grab lunch/dinner.

For example... One day I was so freaking bored in my room and it was a weekend, my roommate's out so I decided to take a walk around the campus area alone and somewhere along the way, I got lost. It was until I saw a group of my seniors I realized that I had somehow wondered to the eating complex.

When I said eating complex, I did not mean cafetaria, I meant it like this looooooong street behind our school that sell any kinds of food; korean food, cheap pizzas, small, cheap restaurants, pancakes, desserts, bubble teas...

Yeah.

So they waved at me and they were like...

Seniors: Hey! What're you doing?
Me: *looks around and realizes where I am* I just ate!!
Seniors: Ah, I see..
Me: *in a forced, bright perky tone* Have you guys eaten?
Seniors: Yeah. We're on it. See you!
Me: Aight, see you!

You see, I can't just tell them I was bored so I decided to take a random stroll and somehow got lost.

It's not like those are big lies or anything but small lies could trap you into this deep spiral of lies. I have found myself stuck in that spiral of lies a couple of times before and no matter how stuck I am, I can't bring myself to stop lying just to avoid awkward and probing questions that sometimes I don't feeling comfortable enough to answer truthfully.

Tl;dr: I lie to avoid awkward situation.

I genuinely hope that I am not the only one who does this because wow, that means there's something profoundly wrong with me.